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Chelsea Manning does not deserve to be thrown in jail (again), and if we lived in a just world she'd be considered a national hero. I'm furious and you should be too
tomorrow i’m facing a sealed contempt hearing for refusing to testify at a secret grand jury over my 2010 disclosures
WINDOWS CALCULATOR IS OPEN SOURCE BABY https://blogs.windows.com/buildingapps/2019/03/06/announcing-the-open-sourcing-of-windows-calculator/
something my therapist pointed out today was how forward i am about my suicidal-ness and got me to finally put it into the right words: it’s about power; not only does the existence of intent carry power by using plain words to express the stakes, but also that i have granted them the opportunity to be kind — they can do what they want with that but ultimately cannot change the circumstances of this situation. the response i’m given tells me everything i need to know about a person.
fuck, i am a mess. i’m really not sure i can do this “life” thing while continuing to have no buffer between experiences and overwhelming emotion.
the effort raw emotion is worse than the pain, as it hasn’t been dulled by time. it is like having to go through everything again from the beginning, and i don’t know if i’m strong enough for that.
so i just coded from when i finished work (6pm) until now, 11pm. i feel didn’t get very far (about 200-250 lines of some simple object types and iteration+filtering logic), but it raises my current confidence level a little bit. i definitely kept getting stumped with some of the compiler errors i ran into, but hopefully with time i can get better with that.