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i wish someone, anyone, would notice that i’m going to die. i feel like this would be rather trivial as i’ve been blatantly saying it for months. this goes hand-in-hand with the fact i’ve been nothing but high drama for equally as long. i thought this out of character behavior would have been a red flag but looks like i’m just an asshole instead. it cannot be that there is nothing left inside me anymore, that i’m so scared and alone the only thing i can do is cry out for help.
@taiki i just saw your mail (but haven’t read it yet); i haven’t caught up on email yet; i’ve got emails of everyone who responded to me for meetups flagged for review tomorrow.
trying to make a wrapper of the windows notification (toast) api which will just take xml input and push a notification; and this seems way more difficult than necessary. i can write my own platform agnostic xml handling thing to do all the major work — but getting that api visible is a major challenge as i seem to need some additional packages installed??
@ticky i’ve been using tootstream in my terminal, it’s been alright but no notification system.
@KateLibC i have some distance vision problems and things can look blotchy; but apart from farmland i haven’t seen mosaics before...