𓂧 𓅓 𓇌 @demi@witches.social

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cool, i really want to get up and do things but i feel too weak to do that

it sure is an experience to wake up and not have your body work for you. to have to struggle to get feeling and motion back into your extremities before you can even sit up in bed. because otherwise they feel like they aren’t there at all.

i hope the people i think of as friends will somehow forgive me for my numerous emotional breakdowns. i hope one day there will be words to describe how traumatic this has been for me — and how continuing to live has been traumatic as well.

and i fundamentally don’t understand what can be done for me, if anything. i don’t understand how any of this is going to magically just “get better” — it hasn’t and doubt it ever will.

and what really makes me feel so alone is the distance between myself and anyone that wants to offer me support. like, there is this huge gulf between where i am at and what they understand; and anything they say feels completely hollow.

i just, i feel so absolutely alone. more often than not these days; and it hurts so much. it hurts so much and i don’t know what to do about it. i don’t understand how this could get better.

i feel like i’m a terrible person all the time, to everyone, because i’m so vulnerable and my personality is so raw. it’s like i have no way to express myself properly anymore and just end up driving everyone away because i’m too much... whatever. i’m so upset and hurt and feel like i have nobody to turn to that isn’t also going to get hurt by all this.

i am so tired and i have a bit of a headache; but i also feel like i’m on the very of having a really intense cry. it is a need rather than a reaction to something.

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so today i finally got a bunch of things that i’ve been wanting forever!! chromatic fire, warden’s law, and braytech osprey. all have me very pleased and now the owner of the “wayfarer” title.

this is one of those things that make me super uncomfortable, especially about drag https://witches.social/media/EvalQyDx-HxkU6J4Lqs